Having experienced the Ibogaine journey (root bark powder) in January 1998. I can definately say that you must be ready for the experience, because it doesn't just stop working after you've taken it. It keeps working and changes keep happening. If you think you've got a stable relationship - forget it. Your attitudes and your ideas, mind, everything changes. You are not the same person anymore. Mind you I'm grateful for it as I have given up my addiction to cigarettes, and alcohol (and to a degree manijuana - tho I don't really feel I was addicted in the sense of the word to marijuana. I don't feel I miss it anyway and don't use it any more). I feel more empowered and don't need anyone else to help me out or to lean on. In the past I felt like the whole world was coming down on me and it was nice that there was someone around to sympathise with me. I realise now that these things were draining my will power and certainly not helping me overcome these things. I also realised that my idea of relationships was based on insecurity - simple as that, yet extremely difficult to fathom when you are in the middle of total delusion and confusion.

Ibogaine is some journey - and I'll reiterate it. You have to be ready for it. It is also incredibly bitter and unpleasant to take. I can still feel taking it (the experience) six months months later and it still makes me feel ill thinking about it. It's ghastly stuff. But I don't regret taking it once. The changes that I have gone thru haven't been the nicest - but they have been for the best and worth the experience and changes. I have not gone backwards - instead I have been given another chance and leapt forwards in leaps and bounds. I guess it does something to your subconscious - triggers it or something. Change is inevitable. Once you realise and understand the damage you are doing to yourself by surrendering your will and your being to these things, you slowly but ever so surely make a complete turnaround. Circumstances happen that make things happen to ensure you do change.

What has helped me a great deal as well is Yoga and meditation. I never thought that I would take this up seriously. But Ibogaine appears to have a direction of its own. t's like it's alive and working with you and in you. Can't explain it any other way - it's unexplainable - difficult to put into words - has to be experienced for the relationship and inner change to be understood. I am very very content to be on my own now. I suddenly have all the time in the world and yet not enough time. It's like all my fears about my needs - what I thought my needs were - have disappeared. I am now for the first time in my life content and very happy to be on my own - directing my own life - not relying on anyone else - and at peace with myself. Reading "Autobiography of a Yogi" and his recorded lectures have helped me with understanding a great deal about life and my past fears and problems. But I doubt if all of this would have come about without the Ibogaine experience. I truly believe it was a catalyst to these profound changes within.